No More Looking Back

On to bigger and better things this year. I am looking forward to tomorrow night with Ma and her entourage for a night of dancing our cute little asses off. Wishing all of you a happy, healthy, and fantastic 2008!

Tis the Season...

For video games. This was the year of the game in our house. We were up at a respectable 7:30 ish, and Evan went right to work opening presents. I did pretty well too, got a beautiful handmade blanket, new nightgown and a couple of gift cards for shopping. Woohoo, that will help me get a new dress for New Year's! Can't wait! Evan is going over to his dad's in about an hour, then I am headed off to my friend's place for dinner. Hope you are all havig a wonderful day!

Killing Time

till I wait for pizza, hehe. I am still here, but my brain has been a wee bit scrambled for the last 3 days. I find myself stuttering sometimes, and wonder if it is connected to what happened. I am still waiting for the internalist to call, hopefully soon. My friend Laura has been chauferring my ass around town and has been such a blessing to have. Until I get clearance from the doc, I will be back in South Porcupine working. It's nice to be back, if only for a short while. I hope you all are enjoying your holidays, Evan is on countdown duty and is getting very excited. I plan on videotaping the whole thing, as he is getting almost everything on his list(good thing it was a short list!) Who knows, maybe it will end up on YouTube....lol. I promise to ake it easy and let you know if anything happens. Happy Holidays!

When It Rains It Pours

So this morning I was on my way to South Prcupine to drop Evan off to his dad when all of a sudden, I got very dizzy. I stopped the van about halfway there, pulled over to the side of the highway and blacked out waking up in a snowbank on the side of the road. Luckily, I had my cell phone and called the store and my friend(who was supposed to be off today) answered the phone. I told her the situation and she hopped in the car with my ex(who by this time was waiting for me) and came down to pick me up. She brought me hom, where I fell asleep until she returned about 8:30ish to check on me. Whn she got here, I guess I had been hallucinating, cause I was sure Craig had been here and I had had a whole conversation with him. She told me to get dressed and took me to the hospital. After blood work and another ECG, I waited for the results. So far it has all come back ok, but they are waiting on one more teat result to come in. The doctor then informed me that until I got the ok from him, I am not to drive. This means I will be back in my old store for the next few weeks and my friend has now become my chauffer. I am being referred to an internalit who will likely run more tests and the are going to hook me up to a "loop" monitor which will record my evey heartbeat for the next two weeks. Holy crap man, it's been a rough month! Has anybody ever had one of those monitor things? Are they uncomfortable? That being said, I am very, very tired. I will keep you all posted on how things go over the holidays....

Back to Life

Wow, it's been a doozy of a week. I spent a whopping 6 hours in my new store, only to be told to take the following 2 days off. Then, I had booked off Fri-today to go home to North Bay. So tomorrow will be my first, honest to goodness 8(maybe +) hour shift at the mall. We left home Thursday mornig about 11 and were sailing along, when about an hour and a half before North Bay, we were greeted by a friendly OPP officer(what is it with me and cops last week?) who kindly informed us that we may be facing a 2 hour delay. Turned out to be only about half an hour, and then we were back on the road. The cause of delay? A transport whose remains were literally being scooped out of a ditch. Had a nice visit with ALL the families and came home today, with a van so loaded with stuff, that I could barely squeeze a Timmy's in the cup holder. And so this evening, I finished my cards, which SHOULD be mailed off tomorrow, provided my scattered brain remembers to stop at the Post Office. Whew, only 8 more sleeps to go!

It Never Ends...

Seems like this has been a particularily bad season for me. I have had a cold, then flu and now it seems I am nursing strep throat. Bah humbug. I spent my first full day at the new store today, and with only a few minor glitches(as can be expected), it went fairly well. I must say, in comparison to the South Porcupine store, it is small. Good thing I like my co-workers, cause we're in awfully close company! I miss my crazy-ass friends from the south end but I am sure I will make more there as well. One parting thought for the evening....why are the OPP doing a RIDE check on a Tuesday night???????

Front Page News...

My little boy was on the front page of our local, twice a week, no cost to us newspaper. He was sooooo excited and mama was busting at the seams with pride. I am still feeling like a bag of turds, but tomorrow should be a BIG day. I heard the local media were going to be there for the grand opening. That reamins to be seen. I don't have the energy to be creative and/or witty this evening, but I will fill you in on tomorrow's festivities.......xo P.S. Mine is the one in plaid on the far right with the big ears(on his hat...)

Getting My Ass Kicked

by this cold. I feel like I got hit with a steamroller while Bob the builder uses his jackhammer behind my eyes. I hate being sick. Today was my last full shift, off to the new store on Tuesday. I have a 3 day weekend....YAY! My in-laws are coming up tomorrow for a visit, and on Monday I have a doctor's appointment. Then it will be a super short week, work Tues-Thurs, then off to North Bay for family Christmas. The last few years I have had each set of parents up eachweekend in December, which means we had Christmas 4 times. This year, with the new job, and the unknown arrival date of the divorce papers(did I mention he filed?) I decided this year, NOT to have Christmas 4 times. Although Evan never seemed to mind, I just don't have the mental capacity this year. So, I am taking 4 days, doing one day with each set of parents and coming home. I just hope Mother Nature co-operates. Off to find something for dinner....

What's More Exciting?

That Christmas is only 20 more days, or that I only have 2 MORE SHIFTS people! After today(10.5 hours to be exact), I am more than ready to go. As for the other thing, Evan is into the countdown along with his Spiderman 3 advent calendar. He got his report card last week, and I have to say, he is doing awesome. As I write this, he is doing homework. Homework people, IN SK. Anyway, off to do a bit of shopping, then home to rest my weary bones....

One Week

That's how much longer I will be in Ma and Pa's South Porcupine store! 5 more shifts, then off to the Square I go. I cannot tell you how excited I am!!!! It's been a busy weekend, helped my best friend and her family move from Timmins into South Porcupine. Evan had a sleepover there Friday night with her kids, and was up later than I was! We did a LOT in 2 days. With mainly 2 vans on Friday, we got most of the boxes moved. Then on Saturday, with 2 vans plus a truck/trailer, we got the appliances moved. We kicked moving's ass! Anyway, today I think Evan and I are going to take it easy, he is going to his dad's after work. Off to see what Evan's doing, got quiet all of a sudden.....

I Caved...

and put up the tree last weekend. Evan has been asking and he's to cute to refuse, soooooo. Up it went. I actually even started wrapping gifts this week. I've been taking advantage of the nights when he is at his dad's to do so. In other news, I will be relocating to Ma and Pa's new store that is going into the Timmins Square. It means about 20 minutes of travel each way but it is a GOOD thing. For a lot of reasons. Since ex came back to work at our store, it has been hard, both mentally and physically. I am actually excited to get to be part of a brand new store. Totally off topic, but how come NGB and JB are the only 2 that seem to know that my little corner of the word exists? Off to take the back seats out of the van, I am helping a friend move this weekend. Ciao for now....xo

As Promised

Wanted to post these before I go to bed. My fave is the black and white :) What do you think??

For Newsguy Bob...

Okay, so not an actual "high school picture" but none the less, I was about 16. And for the record, the vest was black suede AND I had a matching skirt...(truth be told, I also had a torquoise suede skirt too, wonder whaever happened to them??)

Out of Commission

This has not been the greatest week in my life. On Monday afternoon, I took fall at work and didn't think it was too bad. On Tuesday, I turned 34. By Wednesday morning, I was too sore and came home where I also spent Thursday. Friday morning, I woke up feeling *shitty* and went to work. By 10 a.m. I was hugging the porcelain. I came home about 11, went to bed, got up to get Evan from school at 3, then came home and hit the couch. Grandma and grandpa came to get Evan about 5, and it was all I could do to get from the couch to my bed, which is down a flight of stairs. This moning, I am happy to report that I am alive and almost well. And how was your week???

It's That Time of Year

Last night Evan and I went for our annual Christmas pictures and I have to tell you, I cannot wait to get them back. There is one of the two of us that I had mde into a black and white and I think it is by far THE best picture I will own of us. Can't wait to post them for you. As for everything else, pfffft. I am too tired to be witty. Getting up at 4 am will do that to a girl. Two down, 5 more to go. Throw a birthday in that mix, and it should be a fantastic week...

Blah

I hate winter. Today we got hit with cold and snow. Farg. I much prefer spring,summer or fall. There was an accident just down the road when I got home today, apparently a transport and a pickup collided and the transport was on the opposite side of the road. No word on the driver, but why can't people take more care on the roads when it is crappy out? Calgon, take me away......The new job is good, a little more responsibility but nothing I can't handle. Today, supervisor, tomorrow, THE WORLD...a ha ha ha ha.

Too Early...

I just got home from work, where I helped put up the Christmas tree. Ugh. Too early I say, but what do I know? My own tree doesn't go up till at least December. Yes, I have started my shopping, but mainly because if I didn't do it in bit and pieces, I wouldn't be able to do it at all. Time to go snuggle my boy on the couch and turn all the clocks back...

Sooooo Quiet...

Evan has gone trick or treating with his dad, and I live in the back of a fourplex on the highway, so I am expecting a very quiet evening. Was a good day at work, all the girls dressed for the occasion. I got to be Cinderella for a day, excpet in the part where she does all kinds of WORK, not the part where she meets the prince and gets to sit on her royal heine all day. Tomorrow I get to wear my new uniform, and I am kind of excited/anxious about it. It will be the first day of the rest of my life....or so the story goes.

It's Official...

I am now a Supervisor. Got me a little promotion. Woohoo! Just waiting for my new shirt to come in. It will be green and a little different than the shirts the regular staff wear. One of my first new duties...helping to decorate the store for...hold on to your shirts...Christmas. I personally think it is a bit early, but what do I know. So by the end of this week, we should be all prettied up for the season. And now you know...the rest of the story.

TGIF

So here it is Friday evening and I am home alone for a few hours. Evan has gone to a hockey game with the girl next door. Then he is headed to his dad's later tonight and I won't see him agian till Sun around lunchtime. It's funny, such a little person takes up such a big part of my life. When he's not here, it's so quiet, I sometimes don'tknow what to do with myself. Think tomorrow will be a day for Christmas shopping, I got a good head start already. Other than that, not much new going on. Still waiting for something official to happen, then I will fill you in on my good news. Off to clean up the crayons....

Recovery

Ladies night was FANTASTIC!!! WE started with daquaris(I mean dinner), then off to paint the town. The lesson for the night: always smell your shooter BEFORE you drink it. Long story short, I ended up with sambucca. By the end of the night (about 1:30ish), I could barely walk back to my friend's place. I did ask the bouncer if he would come home and take care of me, but seeing as how he had to work, I had to go without. All in all, it was a great night. So good in fact, we're going to do it again next month for my birthday...:)

Ladies Night

My friend is having a birthday today, so we are taking her out for dinner and a night on the town. What better excuse? Things are moving along, and I am doing fine. Tomorrow I might not be...lol. Some changes coming in the next few weeks, when they become official, I will let you know...:)

7 Random Things

Ok, since nobody tagged me, I tagged myself, I know how sad. Just kinda liked the whole concept. Here goes:
1-I played Mrs. Clause in our school production of a Christmas play in the third grade. And I did a FANTASTIC job.
2-I have only had 3 real jobs in my life-A restaurant for 5 yrs, a bakery for 3 and Tim Horton's for 9.
3-I LOVE Baskin Robbins choolate chip ice cream. It's probably a good thing the closest one is hundreds of kilometres away.
4-I have one of the most wonderful support systems in the galaxy. Between my family, extended family, friends and cyber-friends, I am doing great.
5-I once had a hairline fracture in my foot by falling UP the stairs. (I know, I know)
6-I have the most polite 5 year old on the face of the planet.
7-At my grade 8 prom, I lit up like a Christmas tree. (You'll have to ask if you want the whole story)
I am also happy to reprt that I purged about 6 bags worth of crap this weekend. And that was just the kitchen and Evan's bedroom. Snaps for me...:)

Lazy Saturday

I am thinking about cleaning out all of Evan's toys that he no longer plays with. Problem is, thinkin about it doesn't mean it's getting done. Evan is half asleep on the couch and it is only noon. They had a sleepover at his school last night. 25 kids got to invite a friend and he was chosen by 2(did I mention I have a great kid?) I dropped him off at 7 last night, and picked him up at 9 this morning. There were snacks, games, a scavenger hunt, and apparently, as I look at Evan, vey little sleep. I'm glad he had such a great night. Guess it's time to actually start doing instead of thinkning......

Stuffed...

Went home for the weekend to North Bay and was nice to just kick back and relax. Oh, and have REAL turkey! It is also nice to be back in the comfort of my own home. I cannot believe that it is already almost mid-October, where has the year gone? I hope you all had a wonderful weekend...

The Beginning of the End

So, I was packing up the last bit of stuff for the weekend on Fri, when there was a knock on my door. Seems the inevitable is here. The next few weeks/months are going to be tough, but one day at a time. I am leaning on friends and family, and they have been wonderful. I got nothing else, sorry to say.

Forgive Me,

for it has been 5 days since my last post. I have been sick this week with a nasty cold that came from who knows where. It's the kind that knocks you off your feet, the just wanna curl up in bed till it goes away kind of bug. I have been blowing and hacking and hacking and blowing since Saturday. (Insert your own jokes here) Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday, and although I have to work at the ungodly hour of 5 am, I will be heading home in the afternoon for the weekend. And again next weekend for turkey...mmmmmm, REAL turkey made by grandma, and pumpkin pie, and mmmmmm, just thinking about it is making my appetite that I thought had vanished return. On a side note, I got on the scales this morning just for fun. Seems if you wanna lose weight, the way to do it is stress and illness rolled into one. Did I mention ex is back to work in my store? 'Nough said.

I Hate Goodbyes

They make me cry. I just said goodbye to 2 friends who are moving in order to have better lives and fresh starts. They are in simlar situations to mine so I know how they are feeling. Although I have known them but for a short time, they are among the friends I have made who have stood beside me when I cried nd cried along with me. I know that on this journey called life, people come and go, but the ones that matter, really matter, stay, no matter the time or distance that may come in between. So I wish them nothing but happiness and peace. And I know that no matter what happens, I will not forget them.

Oh What A Night...

So when the going gets tough, the tough call up their friends and go out for a night of fun and freedom. When I was married, I think I lost touch with a lot of friends, not because I wanted to, but because we moved, had a baby and kind of lost touch with the rest of the world. I am now happyto say that I am surrounded by FRIENDS, the kind that I can call at any time of day and talk about anything. Aside from my family in North Bay, who have also been amazing and spportive, my friends here in Porcupine have really pulled through for me. And, I'm happy to say that it works both ways, they know that they can call on me at anytime for anything. There have been some tough times along the way, and I know there will be more to come, but now t doesn't seem quite so scary. So, to my friends, whether they be online friends(JB, NGB...), co-workers or other, I just want to say thanks. Oh, and if Ma's reading this, she's really kinda like a Ma, away from home. xo

The Big D

I am now officially on my way to becoming a mere statisitc. I am expecting the papers anyday now, and have mixed thoughts. Part of me is relieved that it will soon finally be over and part of me is sad that it had to end this way. I am from the old fashioned school of "for better or for worse", not run away when somthing you think is better comes along. Not like I got married with backup plan. So kind people, the 2 of you that actually read this, think good thoughts for me if you will, and if you know of any good lawyers in the Timmins area.....

Too Much Thinking

can cause a girl to cry. I have been thinking a lot this week about life what with Misster Kitty's dad, and other various friends who are going through hard times. I plan on going in to have a will drawn up in the next week or two and I got to thinking that when I go, I don't want to leave anything unsaid. So, I have decided to write a few letters to those who I may not say what I want to say right now. Good God, I can already feel the tears welling up. I know death is a part of life, but I dread the day when those closest to me will be gone. I know it may sound a bit morbid for a Saturday afternoon, but it's just what's been on my mind the last few days.

Oh,The Pressure

Okay, so here it is a few days late(sorry guys*blush*). Tomorrow Evan starts his senior K year and he is super excited cause this year he gets to go on the bus. Me, I am fine for the most part. Working with the ex (guess it's about time I start calling him that) was not THAT bad. Sure, it was a bit of an emotional thing, but I got through it. I actaully have to work with him a few times this week, and so far, nobody's lost any body parts...lol. Although there are days I would like to.....well, you get the idea. Anyway, if you have any other questions, comments or concerns(and no NGB, I didn't steal your cable lol) let me know and I would be glad to address them at a later date. I won't say tomorrow cause it's possible it may not be till a day or two later. xo

Part Deux

For you who want to know why I have not come up for air, it's cause the date that wasn't....wasn't. He had too much to do Wed night before heading back out of town to return to work. It's ok, I'm not in a BIG rush but Iam looking forward to the day when someone comes along and sweeps me off my feet again. In the meantime, I am working LOTS of overtime and Evan is home tomorrow. I missed him a lot, but I know he had a great summer, even if he was only actually hom for a grand total of about 2 weeks. On another note, tomorrow is a big day for me. Those of you who know the story will understand what I am about to write. For the last year or so, I have been back at Ma and Pa's store in South Porcupine and ex has been working at a different location also for Ma and Pa. Tomorrow, we will be working together for the first time in over a year. I have mixed emotions for a number of reasons, but this will be a test of exactly how strong I have become. As time goes by, I have come to learn that I am a hell of a lot stronger than I ever thought possible, and tomorrow, I hope it holds up. Maybe some hot guy will ask for my number on his coffee cup while he is there...lol. Anyway, I am off to the shower and get ready for bed. Will let you know tomorrow how things go. xo

The Date that Wasn't...

Had a small change of plans, turns out my blind date went to visit a family member and didn't think we would be going out till later, so we have re-scheduled for tonight. I will let you know how it goes. And, thanks for caring :)

Good News

The good news I refer to: our court case has been settled. We got a lette from the plaintiff's lawyer stating that if we agreed not to countersue for court costs, he would withdraw the charges. Woo frickin hoo! No more worries in that department. What a big load off my mind that is. I am missing Evan terribly, won't see him till Sunday afternoon. This marks the longest amount of time I've been without him. When I'm working (which is lots while he's away) it's not so bad, but on a night like tonight, I find myself missing him LOTS! Anyway, off to do a few things before I hit the hay, earlystart tomorrow!

My New Favorite Things

besides Evan of course :) The sweet and salty bars are FANTASTIC! And the body butter makes my skin smooth and soft. I got some wonderful news today...seems like the gods smiled upon me today. When I get total confirmation, I will let you all know. But things are looking up. And no, there is no mystery man that I am hiding in my closet or anywhere else ;) I wish!

Back to The Grinds...

This is my last official day of holidays. How am I spending it? Recovering from a well deserved and much needed night out with the girls. Evan is staying in North Bay for the next 2 weeks and it will be the longest stretch of time I have been without him. The good news is, I will be so busy working that it will (hopefully) fly by. Holidays were awesome. We went to Wonderland where Evan rode his very first (big) roller coaster. He no sooner stepped off and asked "can we go again?" It was a great day, but I would suggest saving your pennies, cause it is not cheap. I may wait a few years to take him back, when he is big enough to ride some of the other rides. We also went to Science North in Sudbury, a much more relaxed and less expensive day. He got to pet a porcupine and an albino snake which he thought was really cool. Other than that, we rested up and relaxed at my in-laws trailer which sits on Lake Nipissing and is absolutely beautiful. So now, I am burnt, broke and back to work. Only 350something days till my next holiday.....

R and R

So I am checking in from my holidays(slow internet where I have been) from home to let you know I am alive and kicking. Been to Callander the last few days visiting Nanna and Poppa and chillin at their trailer at the lake. It is located on Lake Nipissing and is perfect for doing nothing. I am home for a few days so Evan can see his dad and I have a doctor's appointment on Thurs. Hoping to get a few answers about the knees. Next Monday we are off to Wonderland and Evan is so excited he can't wait... BTW, the picture is curtosey of Evan, I think he is taking after Milky with the camera... :)

One More Sleep...

Tomorrow at 3 pm marks the beginning of MY summer holidays. Not doing too much, I promised Evan I would take him to Wonderland and he has been asking since before school got out when we would be able to go. What a difference a year makes. This time last year, I was on stress leave,packing up my house and preparing for a new life. This year, I am actually looking forward to going where I want when I want. I don't think anyone is more surprised than me at how far I have come and how much I have changed(for the better might add) over the course of the last year. So for the next 2 weeks, I will be peeking in from time to time, until then, asta la vista baby! P.S. the picture at the top is an M&M me. I'm so cute I could just gobble me right up! :)

A Little Visit

Evan asked me last night where Shania lived and when I told him it was far away in Switzerland, he asked if we could go visit her there when he is older, like maybe 6. So we did th next best thing today, and went to the Shania Twain Centre. Although pictures are not allowed to be taken inside where he awarda and clothing are, we did get to take some on her tour bus. Evan was a wee bit disppointed that she was not there, but he got over it. She has no idea, but she has been his girlfriend for a very long time. Whne he was learning to talk, she was *Nya* cause he couldn't say her name properly. From the time he was about 8 months old and damn near got whiplash the second her video for "I'm Gonna Getcha Good" came on the tv, he has been smitten.On another note......7 MORE SLEEPS TO MY HOLIDAYS!!!

The Verdict is In...

...on the MRI I had last week on both knees. It seems I have tears in both (ergo the constant pain) and they are referring me to an orthopedic surgeon. They will do a scope which I understand is done with a local anesthetic and a small incision in which they will insert a camera and see the damage. Then, we go from there. Weehee, sounds like a grand ole time doesn't it? Anybody ever had this done? I had a wee bit of a laugh when the doctor called me herself and asked if I was an athelete or runner. Anybody that knows me knows that me + exercise= not gonna happen. So, any volunteers out there wanna come hold my hand? There's a free coffee in it for you if you do! When I had surgery on my nose about 6 yrs ago(surgery, not a nose job!) I passed out before even getting the gown on while fnishing up the paper work. Look up wuss in the dictionary and you will find a pic of yours truly. Don't ask me how I ever delivered a child cause we all know where that came from! And JB, thanks for taking the time to note it has been 10 days since my last post. I feel like I ought to confess something now! xo

Alone Again, Naturally

If anyone can name the singer of that tune, you get a free cup of coffee next time you're in the 'hood. I am alone again, Evan is safely in Callander, gearing up for VBS(vacation bible school) for the week. He has been looking forward to it for a while now. It's nice that he can go away like this and I don't have to worry about him. I'm also thankful that I have remained so close to all my in-laws. I love that they still see Evan all the time, and I don't think for one second I would ever have it any other way. When push comes to shove, family is what matters most. BAck to the grinds tomorrow, I counted and in the past 4 weeks, I think I've had a grand total of 4 days off. Only 20 more sleeps till my holidays!

Is It Time for Holidays Yet?

So as I write this, Evan has been to North Bay for a week and is headed back there next week. How does a 5 year old get more holiday time than his hard-working, tax-paying mother does? My holidays start on August 4th, which is approximately 24 more sleeps, but who's counting? Question for the parents....at what age is too young for the "where did I come from" discussion? I got some of that last night. Suddenly, when he asked where he came from and I told him "my belly", it just didn't seem like enough anymore. At least not for him. Is this one of the things I discuss with his dad before I say anything, or do I just go it alone? Answers people, I need answers! Maybe I will go to the book store and try to find something age-appropritae. Yeah, that's a good idea. Anyway, I am off to throw some laundry in.

The Sound of Silence

I have been home alone now since Saturday afternoon and am starting to miss my little boy. It is so quiet when he is gone, but I know he isbeing well taken care of and having a great time. I had somewhat of an epiphany last night if you could call it that. I had been out with a friend for a drink last night and on the way home we got into a somewhat deep conversation. She had been asking me about my *new* life and if I had found myself yet. I think it was at that moment I realized that I had in fact gotten lost somewhere in my life's jouney. I had been the daughter, wife, mother, worker, but somewhere I forgot how to be me. I know it sounds corny, but it is true. I have learned a lot in the past year, mostly about who I've been, who I am amnd who I want to be. Now I know you can't see me writing this, but I am getting a bit misty eyed. They say everything happens for a reason, and although I don't quite know yet what the reason is, I am on a journey of self discovery and learning new things every day. Things I never in my wildest dreams I would ever do, I am beginning to do. Maybe next week I'll go get a tattoo to celebrate my indpendence. Anybody wanna come hold my hand??

For Bobby....

This is one of my favorite pictures, it was taken when Evan was about 3 months old. Now he is done his first year of school and is gone to North Bay for his first of at least 3 solo visits. Gonna brag just for a sec, he got the French Language award for the month of June and an excellent report card to boot. I am a proud mom! He is by far the most polite 5 year old you will ever meet. At least I did one thng right! As for the rest of the story, the big move takes place this weekend. Yup, they're shackin up. Those of you who follow, know who I mean. I'm not gonna say too much, cause I have no idea who reads this stuff, although I think I have made it as private as possible, so not every Tom, Dick and Harry can read it. In the word of Hillary Duff(ok,cheesy choice, I know) "haven't you heard I'm gonna be ok". Life goes on and I am doing everything in my power to help it along! Happy Canada Day folks, I will be working, so take it easy!

My Name is T and I'm a Facebookaholic...

So I've discovered the world of Facebook and let m tell you, I'm addicted. I have found old school friends, old co-workers, families of old boyfriends and even a few I thought I'd NEVER talk to again. Time goes by, people change and grow up, and I am happy to have them back. It's interesting to see what roads people have taken, where hey are, what they're doing. So if you like, look me up! On another totally off topic note, here's a moral dilemma I faced yesterday. Standing in line waiting for coffee, a young guy (20-something I assume) has a problem I am pretty sure he is unaware of. The barn door was open, if you know what I mean. So, now my dilemma was, do I tell him or do I not? What would you do? I'll let you know what I did.....right after this commercial break. Ha!

Blah

about sums up how I am feeling today. Got some news last week, and although it was not a huge surprise, somehow, I am having trouble with it. Just when I think I am doing well, I get a reality check and start to second guess my stability. For the most part, I am over it, but every once in a while a thought sneaks into my mind, whether it be a dream, or something else that stirs up what is long gone. Yesterday I went and sat at a friend's place and while Evan swam like a fish, I baked like a beer-butt basted chicken. Had sunscreen on to boot. So I am off to soothe the savage burn with Aloe Vera, I hope you all have a wonderful week!

A Little Perspective

So, this weekend we went to Callander (just outside of North Bay) to visit my sister in law who was there visiting from Michigan. Had a super time and headed out about 2:20 yesterday afternoon. This is what we missed being involved in by about 5 minutes. I am at this very moment thanking God for any and every diversion (Needed a Tim's fix for the highway) that kept us from being involved in this. I don't have too many details, aside from one fatality and I believe 5-6 vehicles. The highway was closed for approximately 8-9 hours. We re-routed (an unexpected adventure is what I told Evan) and what should have been a 3.5 hour trip turned into 6. As I look at this picture, I don't care if it had taken us 6 days. Thanks for it not being our time to go.

The Single Life

So last night I did someting I've never done before. I got together with oneof the girls from work and 2 of her friends, and went to a singles dance. I have decided that the past shall stay behind me and it is time to move on. I got a good swift kick in the pants the other day(okay, so it was a cyber kick) from a friend and I have decided that I have spent enough time and tears on things and it is time to get on with my life. I deserve better dammit! So back to *the dance*...I went, paid my cover charge(or whatever they call it now) and headed to the rest room where I called a freind of mine to *rescue me*. Don't get me wrong, the people that were there seemed to be having a good time, they were all just a little bit, ummm, how shall I say, more mature than I. Okay, they were older and I'm not just talkin a yr or two. I left my friend there(she is a bit older than I,and she understood how I was feeling) and hooked up with another friend. Long story short, we had a decent time and decided next time will be better. So for all of you thinking I am sitting at home feeling sorry for myself, those days are over. Finally. *This is my now* xo

Just Peekin In...

Just a quick note, we are fine and still waiting for some things to be settled. Thanks to those of you who have followed me on this jouney...there is almost a light at the end of the tunnel...

A Little Good News

So finally, a bright spot. Cause when it rains, it pours and it's been coming down in buckets on me for a while now. I jut got off the phone with the bank and got a bit of good news. Can't say too much more, just in case there are lurkers. And, tomorrow morning, I get to have breakfast with a friend of mine that I have been missing. Life does go on, sometimes just one day at a time...

Stuff...

There is still stuff happening, but I am hoping it will be over soon and I will be able to resume my online life. xo

I'm Here...

...if you find me, let me know.... :)

Starting Over

Okay, so a lot of you have been wondering where I am. There is a lot going on right now, that I don't want to talk about here for alot of reasons. Please feel free to post any words of wisdom, happy thoughts or whatever else. I will return when the dust settles and the smoke clears. xo