I'm a Big Girl Now

So this is my reward to me this week. I have become a big girl, and I am very proud of myself. I am at the point where I have become accepting to the fact that things cannot be changed and I need to learn to deal with it. I know, I should have done it a long time ago, but I wasn't ready. So this week, I sucked it up and am letting it go. Now, this doesn't mean I have to like her, but I have to accept that she will be a partof Evan's life whether I like it or not. Aside from getting into too many details(in case anyone lurks here) I am more than proud of myself. Other than that, not a whole lot going on, I am getting new glasses cause my old ones are *old fashioned* so I've been told. They should be ready tomorrow. Off to get the munchkin into his jammies, no school tomorrow and they had a snow day yesterday, so it's been a short week for him(not me though!). I will be back soon....hopefully ;)

On The Road Again

Just couldn't wait to get on the road again, AND NOW I AM!!! After 6 long weeks of not being as indepenent as I had become accustomed to, I am once again my own woman. WOO grekin HOO! All the tests came back fine, so I got the green light to get back to life. Were it not for my best bud and her hubby, there's no telling what I would have done for 6 weeks with nno wheeels. Anyway, that is that, and there are bigger and better things to come. Right????????

Time

For such a small word, it has such great impact on all of our lives. You cannot turn it back, move it ahead, stop it, or even change what happened in just one small moment. And I'm sure there's not one of us who hasn't at some point wanted to do one or all of those things. I have spent the week tired, sick and alone and it has given me nothing in return but time, to think, reflect and remember. Obviously, there are a lot of things I would not change, as they have made me who I am today. This week also marked a reality check for me, as my friend/co-worker lost her mom. I dread the day that a call comes and life is forever changed. On my visit to the ER on Monday night, (early Tues morning), I was witness to the moment a man had to call and tell his family they had lost a member of theirs in a fire. I wanted nothing more than to simply go and hug this man that I had never met, simply for the fact that he was hurting and in shock. Later in the week, I found out the day the gentleman passed away, they had celebrated a brand new grandbaby. One life begins, another is taken away. Time is so precious, I just hope I have a LOT left to spend with my family and friends. You can bet I called all 3 sets of parents up just because. The family lost everything in the fire, and are asking for donations. Today, I clean house, not because I HAVE to, but because I want to be able to help those who have lost so much this week. Take a minute today and be thankful for the times you've had, good or bad, and remember, time marches on....

Out of Commission

until I get rid of this new ear and throat infection. '08, not off to a good start.

Update...

Not much new and exciting here...I am still wearing the monitor, for 4 more sleeps. Got a call from the hospital this week, they are sending me to an internal medicine clinic there on the 23rd. Other than that, I am back to my family doctor tomorrow, hoping she will have some answers for me. In the meantime, I am sort of getting used to being chauffered around. My friend Laura has been keeping a watchful eye on me, which is a blessing, cause I can't imagine going through this alone. If there is anything new to report, I will let you know. Thanks for all the good thoughts...xo

Before and After

This one is for NGB. I have gone down 2 uniform sizes in the last 6-12 months. It's all part of the Jen/Craig diet(small joke for those who know the story). I have let my hair grow and my dress size shrink, not on purpose, but I like the end result just the same!

Out With the Old

and in with the new. Last night was an absoolute blast. We drank and danced and danced and drank. Well, I did anyway. I have decided that this year has to be good, I will accept nothing less for myself. I went in and got all hooked up to the heart monitor yesterday, so in two weeks I should be able to drive again. Let me tell you, after almost 2 years of picking up and going where I want, when I want, this whole not being able to thing is taking some adjusting. Anyway, hope you all rang in the new year in your own special way and I want to thank Ma, Martha and Gordon for such a fantastic night. Here's hoping we do it again next New Years! Love , health and happiness to all for 2008. xox