Growing like a Weed

So my little man is now 15.5 lbs and is 25.5 inches long. Man how the time flies...He can roll both ways and is almost sitting up. With the help of the Bumbo seat, he can see the world from his point of view. I have another 6 months to go if I choose and this time around, I think I will take it. Man I love my kids...:)

My Little Man

Unfortunately my camera does not capture sound, but I think it's cute nonetheless.

BTW....

Kenny completely kicked ASS!!! Although I would have LOVED to have been among the throngs of fans who were lucky enough for floor/front row seats, ours were all in all not that bad. As for Ottawa in general, wtf? I have never seen so many no turn left, no turn right, and one way streets in my life. We got lost every time we left the hotel! On the bright side, we did get to see a lot of Ottawa...I have however decided that Santa needs to bring me a new camera. Every now and then I Go Back...sigh

Waiting...

So here's the deal. I have been alone for 3 years now and even though my kids are top of my list and the joy in my life, it feels like something is missing. I know, I know, good things come to those who wait. But you wanna know a secret? I am terrified of being alone for the rest of my life. I miss having a hand to hold, a shoulder to lean on and arms around me. I have no idea where to meet people, and given my lack of spare time, it seems inevitable that I will be alone. Maybe it is the spare time I have while the kids are visiting grandma and grandpa and I am doing too much thinking, who knows. But if anyone has any nephews, brothers, friends....(in the late-30 to early-40 range...lol) keep in mind a little blue eyed girl. I'm just sayin is all.....

5 More Sleeps

Can you tell I am getting a little excited??

My Boys Part Deux :)

So here are a few of the other shots of the boys. They make me smile. 'Nough said :)

My Boys

Are they not the 2 most handsome boys in the world? Things are going well, I am thoroughly enjoying my time off. Evan goes tomorrow on his "big adventure", a week of holidays with his dad (and the others), then to North Bay for 2 weeks, one each with his paternal grandparents. In August, he and Noah go to my parents while I go pursue, er, I mean listen to Kenny. This year, Evan goes back to school on August 31st. A little early if you ask me, but he will be happy to go into Grade 2. More pics to follow soon..:)

It's (Almost) Official

As of July 30th, I will officially be divorced. Even as I write those words, it still seems a little surreal. I know life will go on and with the support and love of my family and friends, I will be ok. In the end all that matters is that I did nothing wrong and I can hold my head high. I have 2 beautiful boys who need my love and attention and for them I will eternally be grateful.

My Boys...

I cannot believe how fast the past 6 weeks have gone by. Noah is growing more every day and Evan is a fantastic big brother. When I first found out about Noah, everybody was concerned about how Evan would adjust. Well, I can tell you he loves his little brother and tells him daily. For a 7 yr old, he has been through a lot and amazes me at each and every obstacle he comes across how he handles it. He is truly a remarkable little boy. I am glad Noah has him to look up to and learn from each and every day...

Adjusting...:)

As you can see, Evan has taken a shine to his little brother and then some. He said all along he wanted to be a big helper and so far, he has been just that. It has taken some getting used to, what with having to make sure the boys see their dads, but all in all, things are going well. Evan turned 7 2 weeks ago and I can't believe how the years have passed. He won the spelling bee at his school, and tells me he will be competing in another against other schools this coming Friday. I could not be more proud. And Noah will be 3 weeks old on Wednesday already. I wish there was just one day I could slow down time. The older I get, the faster it seems to go. As the old song goes, time marches on...

A Moment to Breathe...

So the last week ar so has been a haze of activity, but I finally have a moment to catch up while one sleeps and the other is at school. Noah David was born on Wednesday April 15th at 11:15 am weighing in at 7 lbs 1 oz and measuring 18.5 inches in length. He was worth every minute of the 4.5 hrs spent in labour. Evan is ecstatic and is an excellent big brother. He turns 7 today, and it makes me kinda melancholy to know that time is not going to slow down any. A few pics to post, I am sure as time goes by, there will be lots more!

10 Days to Go

I am officially ready...got everything I need ( I think) and now it is just a matter of playing the waiting game. A game for which I have not a lot of patience I must say! In the meantime, I am taking Evan to the movies this afternoon as he did very well on his report card and I figure he deserves a mom and me day before the new one enters the world. He is very excited and last night he informed me that my belly makes a very good pillow...:)

3 Weeks to Go

With little more than 3 weeks to go, I figure I better finally get my ass in gear and get what I need...I have a crib, stroller and an exersaucer that were all given to me, but I still need a few other things. Realistically, this kid could come any day, as at 37 weeks it is considered full term. Boy, even writing that scares the crap out of me! Things are good, heart rate is usually about 144 or so, what that means in terms of boy or girl in regards to old wives tales, not sure. So long as it is healthy, it does not matter. Will keep you posted as time draws near...

The Final Countdown

So with little more than 5 weeks to go, I can tell you I am getting scared. Not so much of the labour and delivery(been there, done that) but at the prospect of starting all over again. Monday will mark the beginning of my last week at work before I begin maternity leave and although I look forward to spending time with Evan, it means that the new arrival is not far off. I am slowly putting things together and with not much room to spare in a 2 bedroom apartment. Thankfully, I have a good support system behind me and people have been more than kind in passing off baby items they no longer need. I will keep you posted as the time draws near.

WOOHOO!!!

I am goin to see Kenny! Big day is August 19th in Ottawa and I am so excited I could jump on Oprah's couch! In other news, things are going well. Baby is due in 8 weeks and as of March 13th, I will be on maternity leave. Although I will be sad to leave my job(yes, really!) I am looking forward to spending some much needed one on one time with Evan before the new arrival. As things get closer, I will keep you informed...:)

Guess Who's Coming to Canada....

Yup, that's right. Kenny is coming to Canada. He will be playing Ottawa and Toronto in August and I HAVE to go. See, a few years back when all the proverbial shit was hitting the fan in my marriage, Kenny and I made a lot of trips up and down the highway between Timmins and North Bay. Besides, he is not exactly hard to look at... So anybody who can give me info on ticket sales will become a friend for life. Wheeeee!!!!

Ah, To Be Young Again...

Ok, maybe not THAT young, but who hasn't wished they could turn back time at some point or another. I am having a day where for some unexplained reason, I am missing my happily married days. Maybe it is the fear that I will spend the rest of my life without someone to share it with. Who knows. Things are good, I am now 6 months and heading into the last trimester. I have put on a grand total of about 11 pounds, which is fine with me. As time goes on, my brain is overrun with trying to figure out the logistics of where to put 3 people in a 2 bedroom apartment and how to juggle 2 kids and their 2 dads. Some days I wish my brain had an off switch. I would love nothing more than to be able to purchase a house, but financial circumstances make that impossible at this particular time. Add to that the fact that about 3 weeks ago, my dad fell and cracked his ribs in the bathtub and has yet to return to work, my litttle brain is about overloaded. I need a vacation....