So I Met This Boy...

and that's all I'm gonna say now that I have your attention.

Reassurance

Just fo rNGB, who is worried about my son's mental well-being, he is just fine. It was a one time thing(I think) and he now wears his shorts where they belong. As for the other things.....

Insight...

Wish I had some. Long story short, since I had such a crappy and ill-filled winter, I am thinking it has had some effect on Evan. There used to be no trouble going to bed, always indepndent, never fearful of much of anything. The last few months have marked a change...he is constantly needing to be reassured that I am not going anywhere(even when I just get up to powder my nose, it's "where are you going mommy?) and bedtime has become a tug of war lately. He calls up the stairs every 3-5 minutes..."I love you mommy" which is beautiful to hear, but at the same time, it worries me. I am always telling him that I love him and that I am not going anywhere. I often wonder if it somewhat stems from the fact that his dad left. He is the bright spot in my darkest days. I guess my being sick this winter took a toll on him as well. I just hope he realizes one day, I ain't goin nowhere......he's stuck with me forever. And I wouldn't want it any other way.

Winds of Change

They are a blowing. Rumor has it this will be my last week at the South Porcpine store, and then I am back to the mall location. Who knows, could be the best for me. Although things have been increasingly better between me and the ex as far as working together is concerned, I welcome the change. I do have to admit, I will miss my best bud there. We make each other laugh like nobodyelse can. I have not had a *best friend* since grade scool, so it feels good to say I have one now. I have spent Family Day (being paid) with Evan and we had company for breakfast, which was nice. What do I think of the new holiday? Well, who can argue with getting paid to spend time with the best kid on the planet???? Not me, that's for sure. Anway, if anyone reads this(since mylast few posts seen to have gone unnoticed), say hi.

Back to Reality

We ate too much, spent too much and laughed a lot, but now we re back to reality. Our *girls getaway* was a whole lot of fun, but as with all things, time went by far too fast. I surprised Evan at school, and his arms were a welcome that made my heart warm in this frigid weather we are having. I look forward to summer, and my less confining sandals and tees, and a trip (hopefully) to see Reba McEntire at Fallsview Casino in Niagara in July. For now, I will save my pennies and head back to the grinds tomorrow...

Down Time

This week has been the most physically and emotinally draining week I have had in a long time. A friend/co-worker lost her husband(though they had been seperated for many years, they never divorced) and three children lost their dad. They range in age from 20-25, but in my mind, they are still too young to be going through this kind of loss. I know people lose parents at various ages, but no matter what the age, it is still difficult. It made me realize yet again just how precious time is and that life is too short for anger and hate. The last few weeks have made a huge impact on me. I realize that I need to live my life one day at a time and the best way I know how. On a lighter note, (sort of), my friend Laura and I are taking a *girls* road trip a la Thelma and Louise. We are leaving Sunday and returning Wednesday and I can't tell you who is more excited, me or her. Anyway, thatis what is happening with me. I am now off for a 4 day weekend(woohoo!) and it is Winter Carnival weekend here in South Porcupine. All kinds of activitites for kids and adults alike, and it all ends Sunday night with fireworks. Good times people, good times. Oh, and NGB......HAPPY FREAKIN 50TH FRIEND! May the next 50 be as good to you as the last...xoxo